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Something is happening, a transformation is in progress. God’s love is redefining my heart. I am affected in a new way by the old things. The planet has been left untouched but my spirit has been altered.
I want humility to teach me, to shape me. I want to know what it’s like to care about someone else more than self. I want to start again, this time I’ll live as the obedient child I so rebelled against to be. I’ll be there as the bride kneeling at the altar ready to face the truth and accept it with open heart and arms.
Cleanse me O’ my God, leave me stainless as I lay prostate on the cold concrete as David did. Forgive my pride, I thought I could do this by myself, I thought I didn’t need you, I thought I was better than most men. I swore I had more to offer the world, but the world isn't looking for the solutions that we need, we only search for answers we want to hear.
The puppet master had a hold of my strings and I was dancing on my way to hell until my feet got tired and my heart grew bitter and the strings snapped. Now everyday brings me closer to the truth that I keep recognizing with every single Word from your mouth. You speak the truth that continuously keeps setting me free day after day, night after night, every last one of your Words is like a loving kiss on my soul as my heart weeps with tears of pure delight because you care what becomes of me.
I am now a Diplomat representing your Kingdom; I take my place as your Royal Priest and proclaim your truth to whoever will listen. Your blood is not in vain, I say your blood is not in vain but has redeemed my life and I give it back to you again and again as I repent and exchange your forgiveness for strength and power to face yet another spiritual battle as I scream your heavenly name JESUS, JESUS CHRIST OF NAZARETH!!!
He is our savior and defender of all that is Good and Holy and Righteous. My brothers and I are Soldiers in the Armies of the Most High assembling in great masses; our numbers are more than the grains of sand or stars in the skies.
We stand with a Kingdom that needs no defense so we battle for lost souls that wander in the city streets and country sides. Salvation for others our solo and just reward, all done in the name of Jesus Christ our most merciful and gracious and loving God… I say Hallelujah, Amen, Amen and Amen!!!
Our sons and daughters…
Our sons and daughters are crying…
Our sons and daughters are crying over and over but their cries fall upon deaf ears that can hear but chose not to listen.
We keep thinking "that would never happen to my baby."
But your baby girl will modify into a
child will change into a
young lady who can transform into a
woman some day
turning tricks and selling her love for dollars to strangers
who pick pieces of her soul every time they touch her body.
I want to shake her and tell her to NOT BE CONFORMED TO THE PATTERNS OF THIS WORLD, BUT BE TRANSFORMED BY THE RENEWING OF YOUR MIND.
You keep thinking; “That would never happen to my baby.”
But your baby boy will adjust to a
child will fine-tune himself into a
young chap who can develop into a
grown man some day
who screams out obscenities and calls all women by their first name…
“Ayo Shawty!!!”
They are little boys
trapped in a grown man’s body
equipped with the intellect of an animal
while their penis points to pussy cats that purr,
their mentality can not recognize what genuine LOVE is…
so I hope these are not your sons or daughters…
We could speak all the languages of the world,
we could understand all of God’s secret plans,
we could possess all knowledge of the earth,
but if we don’t love each other…
we gain nothing.
So I choose to be the Ambassador of Christ.
I will represent the Kingdom of God and stand proudly as His Diplomat.
I will work as his public servant touching the ears and seeping into the hearts of people.
I will be the vessel who will heal the people who are;
equipped with the intellect of an animal.
I will use the words of my Father to restore;
strangers who pick pieces of people souls.
Because that could be my son or daughter whose mind is weak
or whose soul is picked
or whose voice screams obscenities
or whose mentality can not recognize genuine LOVE
Because a child will do childish things,
but when he grows up he should put those childish things away and be the
man who will raise the
son who will grow to be a
man who will love
my daughter who will know what genuine love is
because she watched how I loved her mother.
Her mother was dressed with strength and dignity,
and she could laugh without fear of the future,
and when she spoke her words were wise, and she gave advice with kindness.
She watched everything in the household and experienced nothing from laziness.
Her children stood and blessed her.
And I praised her.
But now our sons and daughters symbolize numbers
and numbers signify statistics
and statistics embody the ugly truth,
And now our sons and daughters correspond to 1.3 million children
who have been homeless for a significant period of time.
Over 16,000 of our sons and daughters stay in shelters in major cities all over the United States every night. And I’m thinking “how can we be spending 4 Billion dollars a month to occupy Iraq if we can’t even house and feed our OWN sons and daughters in our own back yard.”
And statistics keep killing me:
Like pornography had $3.62 Billion dollars in sales
Like every 2 minutes, somewhere in America, one of our daughters is sexually assaulted
Like there is an annual average of 232,000 daughters raped and 44% of daughters are the under age 18
So I pray for our sons and daughters
May God love them and guide them
May the children be blessed and ride on wings of angels to protect them
And may we keep our eyes on God, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith and love.
Have you ever been in prayer, now I mean serious prayer? For instance when I am in heavy repentance. Or maybe intercession prayer for someone very near and dear to me, there maybe a breakthrough I am praying for, a healing of a disease or sickness. Or what about some sort of spiritual demon who seems to be taking over someone's mind. Well when I am praying for things that deep I sometimes fell I just cannot convey to God exactly what it is I want to say. I mean I find myself maybe pausing too long during the prayer, I start giving to much emphasis on how to get my point across. In other words there is something I want to convey to God but I just cannot find the idea that can match the words I want to say, THAT IS WHEN I FEEL I MUST PRAY IN TONGUES.
1Corinthians 14:2 For one who speaks in a tongue does not speak to men but to God; for no one understands, but in his spirit he speaks mysteries.
Now I know if you go just 2 more verses down it says:
1Corinthians 14:4 One who speaks in a tongue edifies himself; but one who prophesies edifies the church.
Understood, no problem, which is exactly why I would not speak in tongues in a crowd, I understand that if everyone else can not understand the tongues then everyone else cannot benefit from them, but that is my exact point, THIS IS NOT ABOUT EVERYONE ELSE (look at the first part of 1Corinthians 14:4). My prayer time is the time I take out to commune with God, to talk to him about my private matters, I share with Him the inner-most secrets of my heart and I pray to Him that he can continue to wash me, repentance is a daily thing and I can not always convey my passion in my own language, thus enter tongues. My tongues are used between my God and myself. I am not speaking in tongues because I am afraid Satan can hear my prayers in English and work against them, I really have no worry about that.
Listen I would never try to pressure someone into practicing my practices. I am just asking, what is the difference between Paul and I, what is the difference between Elijah and I? Jesus said he did nothing on his own accord, but all he did was what he saw and heard the Father do and say. So I am taking Him for His word. God has no favorites so I am going to try my absolute best to try to live as the saints did, live just as Jesus does. I am going to heal the sick, I’m going to speak in tongues to edify myself and pray, I am going to make the cripple walk, I am going to do these things and greater because I am holding Jesus Christ accountable for every word He said, and he said:
John 14:12-14 "I tell you the truth, anyone who believes in Me will do the same works I have done, and even greater works, because I am going to be with the Father. You can ask for anything in My name, and I will do it, so that the Son can bring glory to the Father. Yes, ask Me for anything in My name, and I will do it!
I guess one of the biggest points I am trying to make is why would some of the bible be good for use today and not the entire bible. Of course I understand about the things spoken of in Deuteronomy, I mean we can not go about taking our children to the front entrances of our apartment complexes and begin to stone them to death when they misbehave. Some things are obvious and go against all modern LAW. I am not speaking of those things; I am talking about the gifts, the miracles, the signs and wonders of ancient times. I believe they are for use as much today as they were back then, if not more.
The scriptures did say that the tongues where used to convince the unbeliever, but the scriptures also say tongues were to be used to edify “HIMSELF” not just “THEM.” Also, the scriptures NEVER state in unambiguous words that they were limited for a certain era. I know 1Corinthians 13:8 says:
“Love never fails; but if there are gifts of prophecy, they will be done away; if there are tongues, they will cease; if there is knowledge, it will be done away.”
But it never specifically says WHEN they will cease.
1Corinthians 13:10 But when full understanding comes, these partial things will become useless.
Granted, but I interpret “when full understanding comes” to be the return of Jesus Christ and I have to tell you, I haven’t heard anything about the rapture yet.
Why, in the name of such an incredible, powerful, omniscient, loving, caring, good, merciful, gracious God would we continuously confine Him to the times of ancient? I will continue to live with one belief guiding everything I hold dear about my God, and that is, the Bible is not a history book, it is God’s very word on how to love like Him, live like Him and most important, how to teach others how to do the same. I can not put God in a box and pull him out for only certain things. God is everywhere and I place Him in His right perspective… right the middle of everything.
2Ti 3:16 All Scripture is inspired by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, for training in righteousness;
I yearn for the days when we as the body of Christ will burn Isaiah 55:7-9 into our hearts and understand that there are some things we just will NEVER UNDERSTAND as long as we are still here on earth. To close the door on all supernatural thinking is just robbing yourself of all God has to offer. I believe this is what "RENEWING YOUR MIND" is all about, thinking in a whole different manner.
Isaiah 55:7-9 Let the wicked change their ways and banish the very thought of doing wrong. Let them turn to the LORD that He may have mercy on them. Yes, turn to our God, for He will forgive generously. My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts," says the LORD. "And My ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so My ways are higher than your ways and My thoughts higher than your thoughts.
God Bless You,
Frank Aponte Jr
The truth... it always sets you free. So here is the truth; I have not changed, I am simply living as God intended me to live. God created me in His own image, why would he intend for that image to be a wicked one.
Genesis 1:27 So God created human beings in his own image.
Adam blew our chance for a perfect relationship with God the second he bit into the fruit.
Genesis 3:17 “Since you listened to your wife and ate from the tree whose fruit I commanded you not to eat...."
Genesis 3:22-23 Then the Lord God said, “Look, the human beings have become like us, knowing both good and evil. What if they reach out, take fruit from the tree of life, and eat it? Then they will live forever!” So the Lord God banished them from the Garden of Eden, and he sent Adam out to cultivate the ground from which he had been made.
So you see God's intention was to have us with Him, everyday, together, but Adam's disobedience took that from us. But never forsaking or leaving us God tells us:
1 John 3:9 Those who have been born into God’s family do not make a practice of sinning, because God’s life is in them. So they can’t keep on sinning, because they are children of God.
This is what I mean, I believe I have not changed, I am just fulfilling God's purpose, his original intention, a personal relationship with Him, like it should have been since the beginning.
I don't live to please others, I live to help others through God which pleases Him. I can only tell people what I know and believe to be true, if they choose not to accept it then I can go no further.
God Bless You,
Frank Aponte Jr
I know I could take the time to run my NAVE topical study program and break down certain scripture for you. I could sit here and my words could pour brilliantly across the screen. I could speak with enormous amounts of eloquent words, but this would only symbolize me, not God. Today I want the scriptures to do what they do best and that is talk to your heart and mind. I want to share a wonderful idea that I truly believe can change the way you may perceive your relationship with God.
Now I want you to imagine the relationship a child may have with his/her Father. When there are decisions that must be made the Father has the last word but any loving Father will want to know what the child is thinking. A Father would want to know what is on the mind of the child. Now understand, the child does not have the authority to make the ultimate decision, but the heart is a thing of wonder, it is exactly what it is “The Heart,” all else is shaped and fashioned by the heart. So although the child does not ultimately have the right to make the final decision, he can have some influence on what the Father decides. It is the same with you and God. Now I know this may sound blasphemous to the modern-day Christian, but I present to you living words from the bible itself.
The following passage is a conversation between God and Moses:
Exodus 32:7-10 Then the LORD spoke to Moses, "Go down at once, for your people, whom you brought up from the land of Egypt, have corrupted themselves. "They have quickly turned aside from the way which I commanded them. They have made for themselves a molten calf, and have worshiped it and have sacrificed to it and said, 'This is your god, O Israel, who brought you up from the land of Egypt!'" The LORD said to Moses, "I have seen this people, and behold, they are an obstinate people. "Now then let Me alone, that My anger may burn against them and that I may destroy them; and I will make of you a great nation."
Mose's response:
Exodus 32:11-13 Then Moses entreated the LORD his God, and said, "O LORD, why does Your anger burn against Your people whom You have brought out from the land of Egypt with great power and with a mighty hand? "Why should the Egyptians speak, saying, 'With evil intent He brought them out to kill them in the mountains and to destroy them from the face of the earth'? Turn from Your burning anger and change Your mind about doing harm to Your people. "Remember Abraham, Isaac, and Israel, Your servants to whom You swore by Yourself, and said to them, 'I will multiply your descendants as the stars of the heavens, and all this land of which I have spoken I will give to your descendants, and they shall inherit it forever.'"
God's response:
Exodus 32:14 So the LORD changed His mind about the harm which He said He would do to His people.
I must say, this is not an everyday occurrence where the ALL MIGHTY GOD changes His plans…. But with faith, hope, love and strict obedience I believe our minds should prepare for serious relationship with God amid inconceivable and miraculous experiences.
God Bless You,
Frank Aponte Jr
2Co 5:15 He died for everyone so that those who receive His new life will no longer live for themselves. Instead, they will live for Christ, who died and was raised for them.
2Co 5:17 This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun!
This principle is one we should accept with humility and prestige. This process is one of great patience and perseverance. This is not an overnight development; this is a life long progression.
I wish there were a more eloquent way of putting this; PRIDE IS STUPID. The worst result of pride is interruption. Pride interrupts us from becoming as Christlike as possible; it slows down our maturing process. Pride obstructs our inner mind’s eye from identifying & confessing our faults, it holds back our hearts from admitting our weaknesses. We can not fix what we do not admit is broken. Well along comes Jesus, teaching and spreading His Father's words & ways, exposing the Creator's truth and purpose. But we fear what we do not know and oppose what does not coincide with what we believe. Jesus said in John 3:20 "All who do evil hate the light and refuse to go near it for fear their sins will be exposed."
We are opposed to what ever restricts our freedom, not knowing that the REAL truth will set us free.
John 8:31-32 Jesus said to the people who believed in Him, "You are truly My disciples if you remain faithful to My teachings. And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free."
You see, in all actuality HUMAN truth is a LIE that we have just become too comfortable with to surrender, but at the end of the day it's still a LIE. So we condemned the greatest man to ever walk the face of the earth because we couldn't handle the truth. Jesus Said in John 7:7 "The world can't hate you, but it does hate me because I accuse it of doing evil."
I struggle with my faith sometimes, but I need you to understand that this is not an overnight journey, this is a life long process, learning as each day goes on, enduring hardships and understanding the benefits of these sufferings. The apostle James said "Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing." James 1:2-4
Always remember the following scripture; it helped me when I needed it most, when I thought I needed to be moving faster in my faith. When Habakkuk became miserable because he thought God was not acting fast enough, God said to him:
“These things I plan won’t happen right away. Slowly, steadily, surely, the time approaches when the vision will be fulfilled. If it seems slow, do not despair, for these things will surely come to pass. Just be patient! They will not be overdue a single day! Habakkuk 2:3 (Living Bible Version)
I was seeing things in other Christians that I did not see in myself and I thought I had to be where they were, but every one’s relationship moves at a different pace, we have to unlearn many old things before we learn new things.
Eph 4:22-24 “throw off your old sinful nature and your former way of life, which is corrupted by lust and deception. Instead, let the Spirit renew your thoughts and attitudes. Put on your new nature, created to be like God—truly righteous and holy.”
Christianity is about action, what we do, not just what we read. The Bible is the living Word of God, the Word has life, and it gives life. We must be doers not just listeners.
Col 3:7-10 “You used to do these things when your life was still part of this world. But now is the time to get rid of anger, rage, malicious behavior, slander, and dirty language. Don't lie to each other, for you have stripped off your old sinful nature and all its wicked deeds. Put on your new nature, and be renewed as you learn to know your Creator and become like Him.”
With patience and love we can become that which God intended us to be.
God Bless You,
Frank Aponte Jr
I wonder what it might have been like to walk by the side of Jesus Christ during the last few years of his life. I mean to have actually witness his miracles, to have heard his sermon on the mount, to be in the presence of God in the flesh. I remember a time in my life when I believed that the only reason Jesus was able to do the things he did and act and react the way he did was because he was God. I mean it was easy for Jesus, he was God, he had power like no one else, temptation was nothing for Jesus, feeding 5000 was a small buffet for him, walking on water was a stroll in a park, healing the sick was a regular doctor’s visit and raising the dead well, that was nothing but really good therapy… right?
No, and absolutely nothing could be further from the truth. When Jesus Christ came to walk the face of the earth he voluntarily relinquished his POWER as God and put himself on the same level as man. The love and power Jesus Christ demonstrated to us was a perfect model of what a profound and serious relationship with God can do. That is one of the most important examples of the life and times of Jesus Christ, to emulate his behavior and as Jesus himself said to “…do the same works I have done, and even greater works…” (John 14:12)
The Super Natural of the world should be the everyday natural to Christians. The great love and understanding of Jesus should stand as the greatest example of God’s attributes. Jesus loves, Jesus is saddened, Jesus is angered and Jesus is humbled. In the passage speaking of Lazarus notice how he is told same exact thing word for word by both Martha and Mary, “Lord, if only you had been here, my brother would not have died.”(John 11:21&32) While speaking with Martha Jesus reminds her that he IS the resurrection, he reminds her of the promise of eternal life. Now notice what happens when Mary comes to Jesus and says the same thing, Jesus does not utter a word but instead sees Mary and the others weeping, asks “Where have you put him?” and begins to weep along with the others. No personal thoughts, no words of comfort, no sugar coating, Jesus Christ just simply weeps. My brothers and sisters if this is not the ultimate expression of human suffering I do not know what is. The Almighty God in human form with His head hung low in tears. Jesus Christ understands, Jesus Christ cares, Jesus Christ loves.
John 11:32-36 When Mary arrived and saw Jesus, she fell at his feet and said, “Lord, if only you had been here, my brother would not have died.” When Jesus saw her weeping and saw the other people wailing with her, a deep anger welled up within him, and he was deeply troubled. “Where have you put him?” he asked them. They told him, “Lord, come and see.” Then Jesus wept. The people who were standing nearby said, “See how much he loved him!”
God Bless You,
Frank Aponte Jr
Something is happening, a transformation is in progress. God’s love is redefining my heart. I am affected in a new way by the old things. The planet has been left untouched but my spirit has been altered. 
